Repentance is an interesting topic to discuss with people. There are many people in this world who have set limits on the ability to change, the ability to grow. But Jesus Christ and our Heavenly Father have set no limits on what can be repented of, or how many times a single sin can be repented from. I think many of us have that understanding in our heads, but we don’t always have it in our hearts.
I remember when my kids were in elementary school, having a shocking realization of what the world believes about repentance and forgiveness. I was volunteering at the school that day, so I was in a classroom with a teacher. There was an altercation in class where one child was mean to another during a group activity and if I remember correctly, there was a physical interaction on a mild level. These kids were little and so just learning. No one needed to go to the principle, just a teaching opportunity.
The child who had gotten angry and hit or pushed the other child was then reprimanded and told to say sorry, which they did. The other child then politely said, “It’s alright,” to which the teacher reprimanded that child saying, “It’s not alright, just because they say sorry doesn’t make it ok!” I was shocked by the teachers response. This child was trying to be forgiving and was told it wasn’t ok to forgive and move on.
I saw this exact same interaction between students and faculty on several occasions. I am not sure if that’s what teachers are taught to say to students or if these particular faculty members believed the same thing about repentance and forgiveness (these were great teachers who I respect deeply, just a difference in our understanding). I asked my kids if that had ever happened to them, and they all confirmed that yes, they had been told not to say, “It’s alright,” because it wasn’t. We discussed forgiveness heavily during this time and that it’s not only ok to be forgiving, but that the Lord has asked us to forgive all men. We also discussed that weight that is lifted off our shoulders when we take the opportunity to forgive, regardless of whether the other person said sorry or not.
We read about people who have done horrible things, gone to prison, gotten out, and then changed their lives completely, and we’re all inspired by their strength and ability to change. Those are extreme cases that are faith building. But how often do we see our neighbor next door, who one day encroached on our property, or yelled at us for our barking dog, or whatever the case may be, and we get mad at them. We then stop speaking to them, or speak poorly of them in front of our family or other neighbors. We see a need and choose not to help because obviously they’re a bad person. Do we allow others the opportunity to repent, to change and do better? How often do they repent and we can’t see it because we’re too busy holding a grudge?
I’m not justifying anyone’s behavior, but who knows why they acted like that. Maybe one day we were a jerk first and we don’t remember. Maybe they’re having family stress or they have job or money issues that make everything hard. We just don’t know. But when we hold a grudge, it doesn’t make our lives any better, and it doesn’t help their life be any better either. In fact, it creates chasms that get deeper and harder to build bridges across.
We each at some point in our lives have been on both sides, being hurt by others as well as hurting others, intentionally or not. We can repent from hurting others, but we also need to repent from holding grudges. It’s hard to change when others can’t see the progress we’re making because of old grudges or perceptions of us. But when we can be both repentant and forgiving, relationships can be forged and deepened, friendships grow and families become stronger.
I remember one instance from my life, not that anyone was hurt because of the interaction, but I was not totally honest with a friend. She was not aware that I hadn’t been totally honest, but it bugged me for several hours. I finally talked to her and admitted that I hadn’t been honest, worried that this might ruin our friendship. She listened without judgement, expressed gratitude for my honesty, and we moved on. No one would have been hurt by what I had done, but the feeling of relief from her forgiveness was palpable to me.
I am grateful for all the people over the years who have been forgiving in my learning and growing process. I am grateful for opportunity to repent, to be forgiven and to forgive others. I am grateful for the relief of conscience that it brings, and the deepened relationships that result.
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